Misery

I  know not what to do anymore, I have been competing with myself for a while but my good can never be good enough for him. 

All that I touch will eventually crumble down.  Even curses can be undone.

So for now I will be cringing, shrinking  and digging  myself a hole to stay there for awhile.

And  keep some words to myself. Until the right words come  and I become strong enough to patch them into proper understandable sentences, I shall be sitting here toying over my life's greatest misery.