A Dose of Sex

Six in one morning…… Hahahahaha…eyes popping! Jaws dropping…..Lalalalala!

"There are a lot of gorgeous women out there in the city. But after a while, you just want someone who can make you laugh" 
- Mr. Big, Sex and The City, 2nd Episode, 1st Season.

Auwww... when I am upset… yo-yo I am kinky and sinuously rambling endlessly……(reminds me of my  sifu’s rambling in Alor Star ‘Howdy Mork…!!’)….

When and where can I find my very own Mr. Big? Do I have to wait as Carrie did, until I am a thirty-something…..and wait another six years for IT to actually happen? Wait!! it’s a cobra…seem significant enough but I can’t really connect myself to the ‘event’. Cobra? Cobra! An angry cobra …hiss ….hiss..

Hmmmm…….

I am bed resting since yesterday. They lifted me up from the Red Sea/Arabian Gulf 22°N 38°E through the Bab el Mandeb for a further health screen.. So, today, as usual, I woke up early in the morning, mentally alert and knowing that I have the whole day to laze …on the bed? I don't believe this….

Huaaaaaa……..

Leodi said I was hopeless, the weather was so conducive for sleeping and I couldn't sleep.

I replied, "Yeah what a bugger.."

So I watched the first six episodes of First Season of Sex and The City. It’s about relationship of men and women. I can understand why Carrie Bradshaw did it. You get to learn a lot of things, one that you don't know, one that you don't want to know added to the ones you already knew. How do I go about that?

I believe that there is someone for everyone. It's the "when" that makes most of us impatient. And to ‘whom’ of course make us wonder. Duhh.

I haven't been to New York. I do not know whether KL is anything close to NY. Although judging by the way KLites living their lives, I could see some similarities here and there. Anyway, my point is, being beautiful always has its advantage. Society is obsessed about a certain standards that are considered as "beautiful".

People always say that intelligence is attractive, but how can you attract someone to talk to you and find that you're intelligent, when you are unable to attract their attention in the first place just because you're not beautiful? First impression is always important, but you're unlikely to make a good one if you're not at par with the standards.

So, where does that leave ladies like me? Not beautiful by society's standards but (ehem!) intelligent. They say beauty is secondary but why most are attracted to beautiful peeps otherwise I won't be drooling after Mr. P Brosnan or Johnny D eh?

What's going on...?

           I stood in front of a young couple on a train leaving for WM. They would be around my age, or maybe younger. The man was tall, well built, the working out type. The lady was petite, tastefully dressed and beautiful. Both look like working professional.

            

       The man has an unfriendly look, while the lady seemed timid and shy, sitting closely plastered to his side. She whispers shyly “I love you” and he asked her to repeat the words several times while nodding his head and just before he got up, he said, "Ok" and walked out the train.

The lady has bruises on her upper arm. Finger and thumb marks and those really bothered me. An elderly lady sitting beside her kept on looking at her arm, and the girl standing beside me was as curious as I was and could not help but looked on and looked away several times. The bruises could easily be there after a tussle in the heat of passion but…..

I guess it bothered us, it always does after noticing bruises on another woman, but we could never get the nerve to ask or say anything.

IF she is in an abusive relationship, she needs to get help, she needs to find the courage to get out of it. No human being for whatever reason, deserve to be treated badly.

If it was just marks from a loving scuffle coupling on the violent and uncultured but not abusive manner, well, I don't know what to say. Don't mark me where people might see them :-p

I hope my speculations are wrong. I really hope so.

       Stop abuse on women, children and animals. 

       Stop abuse on men (?).

There is no goodbye

I had said goodbyes before, mostly with heart and mind not in tandem with what were said. So, could it be a goodbye. No?

Goodbye yesterday, but the memories forever remain haunting in moments of weakness. The words uttered, turmoil and commotion flared, the heartache and  tears flowed came flashing back in moments of sadness, whenever thoughts flew wildly and uncontrollably back to yesterdays, to  yesteryears.

Is there any definite or isn’t there any definite goodbye.  Mercilessly, memory stays. Consciously, subconsciously, some vague but most come glaring back with such brutality . There is no running away. It's like a permanent stain. How do you make it disappear? By brutally, ruthlessly erasing them from one’s mind leaving no scars? How?

 

A newfound brain mechanism erases memories on purpose to help make way for new ones. Scientists suggest it could lead to the development of memory-erasing drugs that make a person forget certain things.

Researchers have often debated about the reasons we forget — eg. why newly acquired short-term memories are fleeting. One theory suggests that such memories are simply unstable, fading over time. Others contend interference causes short-term memories to be overridden as new data comes in.

Both notions suggested that forgetting is a passive mechanism, but now it seems "it's not that at all — it's an active system to erase memory, completely independent from the mechanisms to form memories.

Will I forget those memories they want me to forget. 

Let fate decides….