Friends

I have friends whom I label as 'friends' in Facebook and some of them are privileged to view everything I put up about myself while some are unable to view my wall, my full profile or my entire photo album.

These friends are segregated to Family, Friends, Buddies and Blogger Friends. Finally there is one group I named 'uncertain' who are unable to view my wall and can only read my notes without being able to comment on them because I don't fancy their views and not bothered about letting them know how I feel, yet I am unable to delete them off my Friends list because they are either family members, relatives or a friend whom I do not want to burn the bridges with.

Does that makes me pretentious ?

Circumstances in life sometimes forces you to be that way because you need to consider someone else's feelings... in doing so, I feel some sort of insincerity and being insincere tires me to the bones..

Then, there are those whom I 'hide' on my wall. They are my friends, but I dislike reading their status because they would either create awkwardness when reading those status or that they make my blood boil with never-ending stupid/rude comments on politics and personal stuff of their partners or ex, giving out pathetic excuses to gain constant attention and grabbing anyone to join them in easy money-making quests.

I stay at home all day. I work from home and I go out to train students five hours a week. I see no one at times and facebook is a window for me to lookout the world... I get involved in many of what's happening to my friends through their status updates while I totally ignore other's updates I do not hide and I don't quite bother because I don't really care about them but I have nothing against them.

Previously, I would just delete people off my list especially those who request to be added but never bothered to even write me a message and put in any efforts to keep in touch with a simple hi/hello or how have you been or what have you been doing?. Soon, I realize many were offended by that gesture of deletion and got me into re-considering my actions since there is nothing wrong adding and keeping them in the list as I could just easily segregate them into groups allowing me more control of what they can view and what they can't, until they earn my trust.

Now, with 350 friends in my list but I don't need 350 friends. I mean, I never thought I even have 350 friends whom I can call, friends.

I am lucky enough to just name a handful of friends whom I can depend on but 350?

Swimming

I have not swam since entering my late second trimester and the  mother care maternity swimsuit that I bought for fifteen dollar (it was on seventy percent discount) has been hanging idle in in the ward rob  nearly two months. Zoul was away working. 

I don't feel safe going into the pool alone, afraid if I would slip and accidentally would fall flat on my stomach when going into or upon coming out from the pool unaided. I am very heavy now and it is difficult to enter the pool since the steps are a little high from each other. 

When I got to the first step I decided to just sit on the ledge, dip in my legs and slowly moving them backward and forward in the cold water. Then, I would swam slowly towards the deeper end aided by Zoul.

Zoul was just great playing a role like a swimming instructor teaching a little girl how to swim.  I couldn't swim the normal way as I use to because it was too tiring to swim the right way (I was huffing and puffing midway) and I felt pressured at the perineum area.

In the end, I kept holding on to Zoul's neck as he treaded his steps very slowly while my legs paddling. We did a couple of laps and when I got out of the pool, my whole body was aching but we had a good exercise.

 I am going back to the pool next week.

Alien pillows...

I am becoming more uncomfortable sleeping at night and would normally tuck a pillow under the tummy when I am sleeping on my side. Zoul would happily sacrifice one of his pillows for me. Euuwww….. 

I bought two more so he could have back his pillow but at the same time he complained that our bed has now been inhibited by alien pillows!!

When we took the ante-natal class we were advised that mommy should sleep with as many pillows as possible to support the back, tummy and legs apart from the usual pillows under the head. Zoul bought me three more pillows…really huge one that occupies more space on the bed. Sometime he would joke around saying that he is being kicked out of his own bed by alien pillows. Lol

I had a delightful surprise when Zoul got me another pillow especially design for pregnant mommy bought online. It does not cost him a bomb. The pillow is so comfy and I would say all pregnant mommies should have one.

www.babiesrus.com/NursingPillows‎

It is the Theraline maternity and nursing pillow I am writing. It is not an ordinary pillow.  It is five feet long. It could be use straight as a bolster or wrap around mommy’s curve for comfy fit. It provides support when nursing as the baby grows. Nursing could be a breeze and comfy for mommy and baby since the pillow can be wrapped around mommy’s waist and baby could rest on it comfortably.

What makes it so comfortable is the thin beads inside the inner casing, like those in the bean bags but it’s of smaller size.

A brilliant invention and I was told by one of our ante-natal course mate that her hubby would snatch this pillow for his afternoon naps in the week ends….

Sorry Zoul….not a chance!