Thank you my love

Relationship involves letting someone sincerely into your life and into your heart. Sometimes it happens in a strange and tricky ways. Recollecting mine, it changed my attitude and headspace.

The past mostly has change my perspective about my own feelings in a lot of ways, made me feel uncertain and doubted my own abilities to maintain a good long live relationship. I've thought many times that I'm probably best off at being single, but that doesn’t always happen the way I thought or planned.

You can’t stop your heart from loving someone even while your mind won’t let you and sometimes you want to love someone but you are not capable to.

I am a think tank who thinks too much and has the tendency to overanalyze everything.

He said I always wanted things my way which blinded me and not see his point of view – It took me ten years to realize it and he's probably right.

It is difficult letting someone into my life who is entirely at odds with my entire way of thinking. We are so different and the smallest things triggered points of anger and we clash over things that I would have never considered to be significant in the past.

I have never considered myself to be unreasonable but our clashes highlighted the unbending nature of my personality.

With the next guy there is never a conflict because his thoughts are mostly the same way as mine and he had always given way to my needs and wants no matter how strange and expensive they could be.

Both made a comeback joining force with me to complete a mission to be accomplished in six months.

This is the first time I have experienced the tumultuous side of relationships, the turbulence of passion, the first time I have experienced such huge ranges of emotion.

I find myself giving in as my ego struggling against it and I am forced to reevaluate myself of what I want and of my own needs and the journey has been one that has opened my eyes to a lot of things.

This is a journey of many more journeys to come – some has been good, some bad, and I’m constantly reminded that some journeys are meant to be journeyed alone and some paths are best walked with another.

I suppose you are meant to walk with me.

Thank you my love.