Friends

I have friends whom I label as 'friends' in Facebook and some of them are privileged to view everything I put up about myself while some are unable to view my wall, my full profile or my entire photo album.

These friends are segregated to Family, Friends, Buddies and Blogger Friends. Finally there is one group I named 'uncertain' who are unable to view my wall and can only read my notes without being able to comment on them because I don't fancy their views and not bothered about letting them know how I feel, yet I am unable to delete them off my Friends list because they are either family members, relatives or a friend whom I do not want to burn the bridges with.

Does that makes me pretentious ?

Circumstances in life sometimes forces you to be that way because you need to consider someone else's feelings... in doing so, I feel some sort of insincerity and being insincere tires me to the bones..

Then, there are those whom I 'hide' on my wall. They are my friends, but I dislike reading their status because they would either create awkwardness when reading those status or that they make my blood boil with never-ending stupid/rude comments on politics and personal stuff of their partners or ex, giving out pathetic excuses to gain constant attention and grabbing anyone to join them in easy money-making quests.

I stay at home all day. I work from home and I go out to train students five hours a week. I see no one at times and facebook is a window for me to lookout the world... I get involved in many of what's happening to my friends through their status updates while I totally ignore other's updates I do not hide and I don't quite bother because I don't really care about them but I have nothing against them.

Previously, I would just delete people off my list especially those who request to be added but never bothered to even write me a message and put in any efforts to keep in touch with a simple hi/hello or how have you been or what have you been doing?. Soon, I realize many were offended by that gesture of deletion and got me into re-considering my actions since there is nothing wrong adding and keeping them in the list as I could just easily segregate them into groups allowing me more control of what they can view and what they can't, until they earn my trust.

Now, with 350 friends in my list but I don't need 350 friends. I mean, I never thought I even have 350 friends whom I can call, friends.

I am lucky enough to just name a handful of friends whom I can depend on but 350?